So let me go...

I was all alone 

when I first arrived

I was a bit afraid too

a bit unsure

of my decision

I had left very less

behind me.

What I was looking forward for

I was only partially sure

What I got here 

was nothing I thought I would

Never felt so elated 

as I did here then.

Hardly remember when I was last so joyful 

as I was here then.

Felt like my feet

were so light

they barely touched 

the earth.

I was so looking forward

to get back home,

to tell what I have found here,

feeling proud to be in this place

with such lovely friends.

I couldn't help

not speaking

of the kind of happiness 

that I was getting here.

I couldn't wait 

to get back 

and complete the rest

of my days here.

And I was back

but it was all black;

the place had

lost its shine.

And as time passed

it got darker.

I was growing desperate

to find a glow,

to find that silver lining

in the jungle of dark cloudes.

Finally,

I did find some hope

a distant lighthouse.

Finally, 

something to anchor to

and spend

the rest of the days

happily.

Little did I know

that it was too quick

too childish,

a result of my desperation

I guess.

It broke,

and with it, 

it took away 

what was left of 

the earlier days.

And I was left

all alone again.

Now I have to get back

I have to go

so let me go...

I don't want to

have any hard feelings

for I had 

such happy and good feelings

for everyone.

I want to

keep them locked

in my heart,

and go....

so let me go...Yes I want to go,

to go back to the very little

that I had left back,

it is, as I realize

after all

also the most precious gift

that I had left behind.

So let me go....

before I break further

so much that

I cannot stand

so much that

I cannot even speak

So let me go....

so let me go....